*inspired by the passage on page 82 Stephanie Dowrick’s ‘In the company of Rilke’, where she writes:
‘Having written to Lou 2 weeks before his death, for the first time in a year, describing pain that ‘loosens me. Day and night,’ he ‘implored his doctors to “ask Lou what is wrong with me. She is the only one who knows.”
*based on his doctor’s comments where Rilke wishes not to discuss his illness under any name or conventional circumstance (as drawn from J. R von Salis’s work ‘Rainer Maria Rilke: The years in Switzerland’).